I’m just saying…

I’ ve been thinking lately. I mean, we always think of something, always trying to keep our minds occupied. But I’m trying to be positive and let all the negative out of my life. It is hard tough, but as long as we try, we shall succeed at some point.

Everyone has some sort of problems and they never go away. We just slide from one problem to another, desperately trying to get our things together, but it doesn’t always end up that way.

The thing is, we need those problems to stay ourselves. It may sound stupid, or wierd or meaningless, but I really believe in that. We are who we are because of everything that is happening to us. Everything that surrounds us affects our behaviour, our thoughts, our deeds. We can choose to be different, but at the end we will end up the same. We can avoid things, but we can’t run away from our destiny. If it is meant to be, it will happen, sooner or latter. It is hard to keep up with life, especially when you feel like there is nothing that you can say or do to make things better, but it is our life and we need to be living it instead of letting it go away. It may seem like the suffering is neverending, and it probably is, but we need to learn how to live with it. Sure, some people are born under the lucky star, they always get what they want with zero effort,  but us “ordinary people”,  there is no hope for us. Maybe one day we accomplish what we want, but then what? We are old and grumpy and have zero energy because we waisted it to get there.

What’s the point? To get there eventhough it makes no sense anymore. I don’t know. Honestly, I am struggling myself, but I will not give up on my life now just to have something more in the future in which I can’t enjoy. Sure, i want to follow my dreams, and I will try to  accomplish as much as I can, but I will not give my best. I wan’t to enjoy life, not to skip it. I m young, still, and I don’t want to waste it. Things will get better. At least I hope so. And just like everyone else, I will get what is meant for me. I just need to climb those stairs and peacefully reach my final destination.

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Ode to my hubby <3

I need to tell you that you are the most wonderfull thing that has ever happened to me.

 I was chased by fake feelings of love, hope, anxiety and every time I thought it was the 

right thing, life has shown me the opposite. I opposed it for a while, imprecated it for

 punishing me for whatever it is I did wrong. And then it answered me. Life was teaching

 me how to love, how to appreciate what was given to me, how to forgive, hope, repay, how to laugh. I would always put a smile on, just to be pretty to people, but I was disgussed by

 such fakeness inside and outside of me. I tried to make people love me, thinking it was 

what makes me happy, but then you came and proved me wrong. You learned how to love me, laugh with me, make me happy, be there for me, eventhough you weren’t with me. 

Today I am happy to say that there is nothing fake on me and I can only thank you for that. This smile, it is only yours and it is so happy to be sincere that he’s laughing at himself. 

Thank you for showing me that I don’t have to prove myself to anyone, except you and me. We are enough, we are the whole world .

Who loves monday???

It is spring and everything is so beautifull and bluming and everyone is so happy because they can finally wear less clothes and be free. Me too and having lack of sleep doesn’t even bother me because when I wake up, spring energy consumes me. Except on this day. It is a really heavy day and eventhough everyone tries to behave normal, I can see the desperation in their eyes. And I understand. But life goes on and no matter how we spent our weekend, new week is here and we have to move on with our miserable lives until the next weekend. I like Wednesdays because  then comes Thursday and after it is Friday. And everyone loves Friday because we don’t have to work that long 😀

But it is still Monday. And I can’t wait for it to pass. Is there anyone that loves Mondays? How does that feel? o.O

Babies are the cure!

First things first, he is not mine xD but he is the sweetest baby eveeerr. He even poses for the camera, and he is always in a good mood. Not all babies are, but we love them anyways. I love little babies, they make me laugh and make that cute smile ( didn’t know I have one). When I am spending time with babies my heart is full because they are so innocent and adorable that they  make me feel like there isn’t anything else on this planet anymore. No obligations, no worries, no problems, no sadness. Just you and the babby. And it’s nice. Not to worry about anything even if it’s just for a little while. Because this life, it  is a gift but not everyone gets the gift they want. Everything comes at a cost and we need to learn how to deal with that. That is why I love babbies. They don’t know the cost. They are just…there. Being the cutest living beings, making u feel that again!

Writing

Wow, great words!! I totally agree with u, writing should be for us, to make us feel better or to find out what is bothering us. Once u start writing, u don’t even know where u will end up. At least in my case. I understand myself better after I write something.:)

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handsSometimes I don’t really know what to write, and then I think oh, you shouldn’t write for the sake of writing, you should write because–because you’re trying to write something. Because you’re trying to convey something. Because there’s a story you have to tell, a thought to flesh out, a destination to get to. You’re driving your point home.

But I don’t always have a point or a story or destination. And then I remember how I used to squirrel away hours just stabbing down words, stringing together sentences, writing whatever I wanted just because. Because it was fun and it made me happy and I didn’t really care if people read it or loved it or hated it. It was like rubbing on unscented lotion. It’s therapeutic, no one really knows you’re wearing it, and it’s something you do for yourself. You’re not trying to leave behind little…

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What about life??

So, here I am, watching pictures of people who risked everything to start a better life. And I can’t help but think hoooow???!!! How they manage to be successfull and enjoy life at the same time.. I did the same. I left my home, my family, my friends, city I love to start a better life. And here I am, working as a dishwasher in a country that I don’t hate but boooy the language. Gosh…. I come home, tired, i woke up and I wanna do things, but I can’t because I have to go to work and be prepared to it. I wanna travel, but, there is a liiiitle problem. I don’t have money haha. In my face.. because you know, bills and things :/ I finished colleague, but in order to do what I actually want and the only thing I m good at, I have to learn German, and it sucks. I hate it, and I am not so good at it. Instead of writing this I could read something in German and try a little bit harder, but I can’t make myself do it. I try but it is just, I don’t know, i HATE it and it won’t go in my head. The only thing that keeps me from falling apart is my hubby, but he is the reason I came here in the first place, so I don’t know if I wanna kiss him, or slap him right now. I know that in order to achieve my goals, I have to give my best but it is really hard. I wake up, drink coffe, make breakfast, clean my appartment, then I make lunch, eat and go to work. I come home, tired, make dinner, eat, and go to sleep. Every daaaay is the sameee and I hate it. Weekend goes away so fast that most of the times I dont even remember what i was doing :/ … SO, one question for all of you out there, who moved away and actually achieved what you wanted, please help me! What is your secret? I wanna enjoy life, but I can’t. I just seems like I can’t have it all :/

Poem To My Friends

Bosniacum Poeta

My friends are like flowers

Bold protectors, strong solid towers

They are four innocent buds in my life

Preventing anger and erasing strife

The one that begins with A is soft and kind like a blossomed rose

Passionate artist, admirer of clothes

The one that begins with N is sweet and frilly like a proud Bosnian lily

A true friend really

The one that begins with M is cuddly and tender like a purple violet

Mysterious and sometimes quiet

The one that begins with S is funny and nappy like a sweet red poppy

A flower that never acts sloppy

They are always there for me to make my day smell brightly.

To my dear friends Alisa, Mirnesa, Naida and Sebina

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I m back :D

I ve been distracted for a little while. I am finishing colleague this year, my classes are done and I have only exams left. I am afraid of the future, no bright words have approached me. What should I do when I cannot see the future. What to expect, or not? I am also getting married. Well, that is something that I should look forward to and I am. But I’m scared because I have to start a whole new life, something that I am not used on doing. Ma adulthood is about to start and I don’t know how to behave. What I do know is that I ‘m gonna miss this little girl and all that we went through. I am not ready to let it go but I have to. I’ ll put all my efforts to stay close, because I need her. But I also need my Boo. I m not making choices, I m just growing up!

Friendship is priceless

I seriously can’t imagine my life without these two. We have been through so many good and bad things together and that made our relationship so strong and unique. The most important thing about friendship is honesty. If we are not honest, how can we think that our friendship can last. We have to put all our effort in friendship, otherwise we won’t have true friends by our side. People can’t live without friends, we are not meant to be alone. Love is different, of course, we have to have our soulmate, but friends are those who make us laugh, cry sometimes, share everything, have fights, but we can’t live without them after all. I only have a few true friends, but those are so precious that i wouldn’t be the same person without them. So, if you are happy, sad, dissapointed or just feeling lonely, just call your friends. Those who answer are worth keeping!

Cvijet koji mirise na Ljubav – Zana Koljić

I like this one!!!

Kutija ljubavi

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   Samo za Kutiju ljubavi, govori Zana Koljić :
Sjećanje je plod osjećanja i razuma koja ravnopravno prihvataju Prošlost dajući joj pravo da se pojavi u Sadašnjosti. Zato,njegujte svoju Ljubav i osjećanja prema partneru i svima koje volite. Sjetite se i onih starih ljubavi,nasmiješite se,nazdravite, oprostite i krenite dalje jer treba biti čovjek. Opraštajte i naučite reč “Oprosti”.Volite i budite vrijedni ljubavi !
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“ Cvijet koji mirise na Ljubav”

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Zovem se Sjeta. Čežnja je sinonim za moje biće-naizgled formiranu ličnost i odraslu ženu, ali u srži sam samo majski jorgovan i lijepa sam dok se proljeće gnijezdi u zelenilu mojih očiju. Nemam trnje. Nisam otrovna, ali ni to ne znači da sam krhka osim da sam nježna. Svaka moja latica je moja vrlina koja se pretvara u manu od iskvarenog ljudskog dodira. Da,to je otrov. Operi ruku prije nego što me otrgneš i ne poklanjaj me svakome. Čudan…

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