I’ ve been thinking lately. I mean, we always think of something, always trying to keep our minds occupied. But I’m trying to be positive and let all the negative out of my life. It is hard tough, but as long as we try, we shall succeed at some point.
Everyone has some sort of problems and they never go away. We just slide from one problem to another, desperately trying to get our things together, but it doesn’t always end up that way.
The thing is, we need those problems to stay ourselves. It may sound stupid, or wierd or meaningless, but I really believe in that. We are who we are because of everything that is happening to us. Everything that surrounds us affects our behaviour, our thoughts, our deeds. We can choose to be different, but at the end we will end up the same. We can avoid things, but we can’t run away from our destiny. If it is meant to be, it will happen, sooner or latter. It is hard to keep up with life, especially when you feel like there is nothing that you can say or do to make things better, but it is our life and we need to be living it instead of letting it go away. It may seem like the suffering is neverending, and it probably is, but we need to learn how to live with it. Sure, some people are born under the lucky star, they always get what they want with zero effort, but us “ordinary people”, there is no hope for us. Maybe one day we accomplish what we want, but then what? We are old and grumpy and have zero energy because we waisted it to get there.
What’s the point? To get there eventhough it makes no sense anymore. I don’t know. Honestly, I am struggling myself, but I will not give up on my life now just to have something more in the future in which I can’t enjoy. Sure, i want to follow my dreams, and I will try to accomplish as much as I can, but I will not give my best. I wan’t to enjoy life, not to skip it. I m young, still, and I don’t want to waste it. Things will get better. At least I hope so. And just like everyone else, I will get what is meant for me. I just need to climb those stairs and peacefully reach my final destination.